pawkimishra

I think through seasons of make pretend  I will not play the phantom anymore No crowded rooms, no faces in the line In this vast space, your pulse is tied to mine It’s you. It’s always been just you. The single thread that pulls the spirit through The world suggests a thousand other names But they are shadows flickering in frames You are my anchor in the rising tide The only place where truth and I reside But oh, my chest A wall of bricks built deep inside the soul It presses down a cold and steady ache A load that tests how much a heart can take

  The city below is just tiny flickers of light passing by and up here the wind is still at the moment. Striking heavenly chill passes through, if for a while I could just settle down and not think. How do I pause the thoughts though? And they aren't exactly thoughts, they are a pair of eyes. A pair of the most beautiful, dark, petite eyes that somehow make feel the cold wind warmer and the shimmer of the city fades as they claim their right to be the shiniest stars and before I could distract myself with something to keep up at the shore they submerge me in them. That gaze drowns me in so much I don't even want to breathe outside it anymore. I stay up here, on the terrace, suspended between the cold wind and the ocean of those eyes.

If I give up on life before you decide to even listen to me once, always remember my love for you is greater than the deepest ocean on this planet and I'd give away the shattered pieces of my broken heart to make you feel a glimpse of what you mean to me, not that it'd matter to you I hope it does but then I'll actually rest in peace. I am living as your lover and I'll stop that way. I just want this torment to stop now it's chewing on my flesh each day a little more. I could trade my everything if I as much get to breathe in the same room as you, for once. I love you so much it's beyond my ability to contain anymore I can't now, no. I spent the last two years convincing myself you never meant anything you wrote, and you really didn't, but I like to think you did. For once you saw me too, for once I was loved by you.